Open Doors
Part 2 of Breaking the Walls
Sam pulled out of Janet's driveway. She was glad that Janet had gotten a ride to
work. God, Janet didn't know it but she
had basically saved Sam's life. Well, maybe not her life per se, but close
enough. She wasn't ready to tell Daniel
the answer to that question yet, not when she knew he was still madly in love
with Sha’re. How could this happen? She spent half of her time with SG-1 flirting
with Jack. But it wasn't Jack that she
had spent her nights dreaming of, it was Daniel. She felt very guilty about
being in love with him in the way that she was in love with him. She didn't love him just like a brother or a
friend, but as a lover, as someone that she would want to be with the rest of
her life. She loved him in the way that she wished she could spend every night wrapped
in his arms, pulled tight up against his warm, hard body.
* * * * *
Daniel threw a few of his books in his bag, then
grabbed his coat and started his way up to the parking lot. Why had Sam left so suddenly earlier? Had she not wanted to answer the question? But,
why? Maybe he said something wrong? I
have no idea, I'll ask her about it when I see her tomorrow. Sam had made a
very good poin, thought. This has been hard and it
only seems to get harder. At times it feels like the pain is unbearable. The
worse part of it all was I didn't only lose Sha’re; I lost Ke’ra also. But it felt so good to let some of it out, and
talking to Sam is great. There's just something about her that I can open up
to. I wonder if she knows how much she means to me, and that I do really need
her? Wait, did I just think that?? Do I need her? Okay, now I'm confusing
myself. If I need her, then do I love
her or what? Okay, I need to sleep, that’s all.
I need sleep and when I wake up,
I'll be thinking clearly. Yeah, that’s it, I just need sleep.
* * * * *
Sam threw her bag onto her chair, and then made her
way to the locker room, which was the girls’ for about 15 more minutes. What
am I going to do when Daniel comes in? He’s going to ask me why I didn't answer
his question last night. I can't tell
him; not yet. I'm not ready and nether
is he, not after all he’s going through right now. Sam pulled on her t-shirt and grabbed her jacket. She made her way out of the locker room and
started down the hall to her office.
"Carter?"
She turned to see Jack walking towards her.
"Yes, Colonel,” she stopped so that he could
catch up and walk next to her.
"Have you seen Daniel yet this morning?"
She stopped died in her tracks.
"No. Why,
Sir?"
"Well, I don't think he’s come in yet and I
wanted to know if you knew where he might be. If you haven't seen him, could you call him
and see if he is still home: Maybe he
just didn't get up to his alarm or something."
"But, Sir, I've got a ton of work to do this
morning." She tried to think of a
better way of avoiding it, but she didn't know what else to say.
"Carter, the work can wait until you call
Daniel. It will take two seconds. Anyway, it’s Daniel; since when did a pile of
work come before him?" He flashed a
smile at her, and then walked away.
Damn it, now I just don't have to worry about
facing Daniel when he gets here. I have
to call his house and wake him up and talk to him before even seeing him face
to face. She walked into her office and
picked up her phone, then dialed Daniel’s number.
*ring* *ring* *ring*
"Hello," Daniel’s sleepy voice answered
the phone
"Hey ... um .... Good morning, Daniel."
"Sam???"
"Yeah...um...Jack wanted me to call and wake
you up. Do you know that you’re half an
hour late?"
"Um, no, I must have forgotten to set my clock
last night when I got home. I'll be
ready in a few minutes, but my car is having some problems. Could you come downtown and pick me up?"
Sam froze once again. Pick him up? She took a deep
breath. She would have to be able to see
him without wondering what will happen when he walks in the door. And at least
now she had a chance to talk to him before they were at the SGC.
"Sam, are you still there?"
Oh, shit, she had forgotten he was still on the
other line.
"Yeah, I'm here. I'll be there in about half an hour, okay?"
"Yeah."
She hung up the phone. She pulled off her SG jacket
and put on her black one. She didn't have a place to change because the locker
room had probably been taken over by the men by now.
* * * * *
Daniel shut his bedroom door, walked out to his
kitchen and poured himself a hot cup of coffee. Man, how could I have forgotten to set my
alarm?? I must have been more tired than I thought. He sipped his coffee as he thought. Sam would be there in around five minutes. Maybe
I could buy her dinner or something to thank her for being there for me last
night. A knock on the door pulled
him from his thoughts, and he made his way to the door. He opened it to see
Sam.
"Good morning," he said with a shy smile.
"Morning." She gave a slight wave of her
hand.
"I just have to grab my coat and bag," he
said, then turned back in his apartment.
He appeared within second as he pulled on his coat.
* * * * *
Sam pulled her keys out of her pocket as Daniel
opened the front door of the apartment building. Why did I do this again?? I
feel so uncomfortable right now.
"Sam,” he said, getting into her SUV.
"Yeah, Daniel."
"Um, about last night…"
Here we go, I knew this was coming, she thought to herself.
"Well, I wanted to say I'm sorry if I hurt you
or anything like that." He was
playing with one of the zippers on his bag.
"What on Earth gave you that idea?"
Okay, that's great; he now thinks you’re mad at
him because you slipped up last night.
"Well, I guess because of the way that you
left last night … well, I thought you were pissed off at me, and that I had
said something."
"No, Daniel."
She let that slip out faster and louder then she
had meant to.
"It’s not that, it's just... well
that....um...I just…"
Damn it, Sam, get a grip and spit something that
makes sense out.
"…well.....you see.......I had to talk to
Janet about a personal problem."
Shit, you
didn't just say that.
Sam heard him move uncomfortably in his seat. The silence in the car was almost painful.
* * * * *
Daniel tried to think of something to say, but he
couldn't come up with anything appropriate. Why is this so hard? Just say
something.
"So, did Janet help you?"
No, bad
question. Now she's going to think you’re
prying or something.
"Um, yeah, she did. You know, she's really great to talk to."
Oh, so it wasn't that kind of problem. I mean, well, damn it, Daniel, calm down. Clear your mind. He let out a deep breath.
"I know she is. Trust me, I've spent
a lot of time talking to her during the many times that I have spent in the infirmary."
She let out a shy laugh.
That’s better, now you have her laughing. Keep this up and maybe nothing will be weird. He looked over at
Sam who was now calmly smiling. She has a beautiful smile. I
wonder why I never noticed it before.
"You’re in a good mood this morning."
"Yeah, I am, aren't I,” he smiled at her. Wow,
she's very beautiful.
"It’s great to see you smiling again,
Daniel." She gave his shoulder a
squeeze.
Her touch
feels so good. God, do I wish I could pull her into my arms, and.......wait, Daniel,
this is Sam you’re thinking about. You know, the one you work with? Major in the air force? Damn it,
Daniel, you can't think that way about Sam.
* * * * *
He looks so
cute. I'm so glad that he’s not asking me more about last night, but I'm even
more glad he smiling again. It’s been so long since I've seen him happy. I missed his smile so much. I wonder what's made him feel better. She stopped at a red
light.
"Um, Sam, I wanted to thank you for being
there for me last night. It meant a lot
to me to have a shoulder to cry on and a friend to hug." He shined one of those super sensitive smiles
that just seem to speak on its own. Sam
had to pull her eyes away from him as the light turned green.
"Daniel, I was so glad to be there for
you. If you ever need me for anything,
I'll be here for you."
Did I just say that? He’s
going to get the wrong idea from that. They pulled up to the gate.
Within a few minutes, the two were on their way into
the SGC. Sam turned the corner and started
her way to her office. She stopped and
turned back just in time to stop Daniel before he had gone into his office.
"Hey, Daniel."
He stopped
halfway in his door.
"Yeah, Sam?"
"Um... we have a briefing in around forty-five
minutes, okay?”
"Okay, thanks."
He gave her one last smile, and then turned into
his office.
She took a deep breath, then turned and made her
way down to her office. Why does he have to make this so hard?? I mean, just
looking at him makes me want to pull him in my arms, and kiss his soft lips. I want
to see that lust in those deep blue eyes of his. Not that he knew that he was doing this to
her, but in a way she wished he did.
"Hey, Sam."
She pulled herself away from her thoughts and
turned to see Jack in her doorway.
"Yes, Sir."
He took a few steps into her office, picked up a tool
and started playing with it.
"Um, how is Daniel?"
Sam set down the book she had just picked up. Jack hadn't asked about Daniel in a long time.
"He’s doing better, Sir."
"That’s good.
Um...well… oh, um, the briefing has been pushed back an hour because
General Hammond has something he has to do before the briefing."
She looked up at him.
"Okay, Sir."
"Sam, there is one other thing...."
"Yeah."
"Well, could you tell Daniel?"
"Yeah, Sir...um, can I ask why you haven't
tried to talk to him?"
"Um, well, you know......well.....because....Sam,
can we talk about this later?"
He left her office without another word. Sam had
spent many hours trying to get Jack to talk about why he and Daniel were
growing apart, but she had never gotten an answer out of him.
* * * * *
Daniel sat in his office. Why can't I keep
focused? Okay, Daniel, take a minute to think about this, okay? Sam is a beautiful, smart, kind woman. But
she's a friend, and I don't want to push her. And then there's the fact that she's in love
with Jack, or at least she likes him a lot. Calm down.... come on, you can keep
yourself under control. Okay, let’s be
realistic here. He took three deep
breaths. Yes, she is very, very beautiful, but she would never see you in
the way that you see her.
"Daniel."
He turned to see Sam in his doorway.
"Hi."
God, she is beautiful. Why haven’t I noticed before these last two
days?
* * * * *
"Um....I'm here to tell you that…"
She paused for a minute. She wanted to say “I'm here to tell you that
I love you but I have never told you because you’re in love with Sha’re'.”
"…that the briefing has been pushed back an
hour."
She couldn't stop herself as she stepped further into
his office. Damn it, Sam, don't get too close, she thought as she
stepped closer.
"Sam."
The sound of his voice had this effect on her. He has no idea how good he sounds. The
way he moves around the room, the way he moves when he’s found something she
found truly fascinating.
"I wanted to know something, but I'm afraid to
ask."
"What would that be?”
He stopped walking around his office, and stepped
closer to her so that she could feel his warm breath on her face. His hands came over hers for a brief moment, and
then moved up her arms. Oh God, Daniel, don’t do this. I don't know how much longer I can control
myself.
"I wanted to know: do you love Jack?"
"No, Daniel, I don't. Well, as a brother and a
close friend, but nothing more."
He had a half smile on his face as he lowered his
lips to hers. She couldn't help but kiss him back on his warm lips. She ran her hand in his
soft, brown hair. In reaction, he pulled her closer to his warm, hard body and
then started kissing her deeper as his tongue searched her mouth. The passion
seemed to fill the room and all they could do was take it in. The kiss was the
only thing in the world between them. She could feel him pulling her closer and
then picking her up and clearing a space on his desk, all in one movement. Then
he sat her on his desk, and started kissing her again, this time even more passionately
than before. She pulled off his jacket and let it fall to the floor. He pulled his lips from hers and traced her
neck with his lips and then with his tongue. She couldn’t stop the low moan
that she was now making.
* * * * *
Sam was right. He did need to fix what had
happened between him and Daniel, Jack
thought as he was sitting in the mess hall. He got up and started making his way to Daniel’s
office. He saw the door was shut, so he
gave it a good hard knock. To his surprise, the door opened and he saw Daniel
jump away from his desk, on which Sam was sitting. Oh my God, did I just
walk in on what I thought I walked in on? Were Daniel and Sam going to do that
in his office?? On his desk???
"Jack,” Sam said, hopping off of Daniel’s
desk. "Sir, I can explain … well, actually I can't." She started to look pale.
Jack turned to Daniel.
"Well, I don't think I have to explain this. I think you’re a grown man and you can put 2
and 2 together. Well, I hope you can." Daniel said without missing a beat.
Not that he ever did; Jack knew that boy could talk and talk well, but he
wasn't going to talk himself out of this.
"Well, let me check my math here, Danny Boy. I
seem to think that I walked in on you and Carter here, getting ready to make
love like rabbits on your desk, here in the SGC, when anyone could walk
in." Did I just say that??
Daniel just looked at him, and Jack could tell he hadn't
expected him to say that. With a smile, he left the room.
* * * * *
Daniel just watched as Jack left the room. He knew
Jack that knew what he had walked in on was something close to that. Wait, was I going to make love to Sam??
"Sam."
He turned back to Sam.
"No, Daniel, let me say something first."
Daniel was aware of how close she was standing to
him.
"You know how last night I left, well, very
suddenly? Well, it’s because you asked me why I had came back, and, well, the
reason I came back was to be with you to see if you were okay … and, well,
because I'm in love with you."
"I know that now, Sam, and I love you,
too."
~END~